Waiting for my Edward...

Ok so you're probably wondering why my first blog back to the blogspot in almost a year in a half is titled this...you also probably assume this is about Edward Cullen...THINK AGAIN...this is about love...this is about true companionship but this Edward isn't a vampire and his bride isn't named Bella. This Edward is a father, a leader, a preacher; and his wife Tammy is a mother, a teacher, and a mentor and role model. I'm talking about my second parents Tammy and Ed Glover. Tammy and Ed have been a part of my life for 2 years and they have been the greatest 2 years of my life. They together run Urban Impact Foundation on the Northside of Pittsburgh. (check out their site...let me tell you some great kingdom work) I have learned many things from Mama and Papa but one thing I can tell you has been the most impacting thing they have taught me is how to love. The fact that Ed still dates Tammy and in return Tammy is so saturated with respect for her groom. The most important thing is that God is the center of their relationship, always and forever. Mama tells me stories about them dating, trials they have gone through in their marriage and what it is like doing ministry together. One thing is clear, they still are more in love than ever and that is because they are even more in love with God separately. Mama said to me once, God wants you to have amazing and satan shows you good...at the time we think good is good enough when really amazing is on the way (this is a paraphrase i honestly dont remember the exact words but you get the picture). And for a girl who has tried to take life into her hands many times and has failed miserably has decided to give most of it to God...but this part...nope its up to me. Always. Now this isn't a passive, "I'm waiting for the perfect guy to fall into my lap and I'm not doing anything about it.", but rather a conscience decision to give this up to God and to leave the idiots alone. To surround myself with only Godly men who hold me to accountable and Godly standards. And through that discipline I believe God will find me my Edward...find me the man that challenges me, that courts me, that does ministry with me, that prays with me, that is not only the most amazing father to my children but the children that I decide to just randomly adopt one day (i love you guys and thank you!!!), who isn't afraid to be passionate about God and his calling on our lives, and to lead me truly lead me as a real man of God. Watching my "parents" these past two years I think God finally has shown me...I deserve nothing less than amazing...and he's out there...why allow these only mediocre dudes have a piece of my heart they don't deserve. I'M DONE WITH IT. Girls...who's with me...and guys, who's ready to step up and show us that loving God is sexy (lol yes i said it...ostracize me if you want!).